Moments of Heightened Aliveness

20 September, 2018

"You ask whether your verses are good?  You ask me?  You have asked others before?  You send them to magazines?  You compare them with other poems, and you are disturbed when certain editors reject your efforts.  Now I beg you give up all that.  You are looking outward, and that above all you should not do now.  Nobody can counsel and help you, nobody.  There is only one single way. Go into yourself.  Search for the reason that bids you to write; find out whether it is spreading out its roots in the deepest places of your heart, acknowledge to yourself whether you would have to die if it were denied you to write  And if out of this turning inward, out of this absorption into your own world verses come, then it will not occur to you to ask anyone whether they are good verses.  Nor will you try to interest magazines in your poems: for you will see in them your fond natural possession, a fragment and a voice of your life."

Rainer Maria Rilke, Poet

I am re-reading Rilke.  His insights offer me moments of heightened aliveness.  All people including Architects have insecurities.  Especially Architects.  We all want our tutors and our mentors and our family and our friends and our clients to love our work.  But they cannot and will not and will never.  Society and culture and social media is not programmed to love our work.  In the past, I have been guilty of trying to win this award or trying to be published in that magazine.  This is not important.  What is important, is the authentic and continued search inwards and from that is where great architecture comes forth.  I cannot explain why the Workshop or myself personally do not shout about our work to others.  Rilke quote above helps me to explain how I think about myself and the Workshop.  By linking this journal to my social media I am showing enough of myself.